Thrashing Tantrum Surrender

Fine!
I get it!
Loud and clear,
You great big
Universe, You!
You’ve told me
At great lengths
I listened and heard
But did quite the
Opposite
Over
And over
And over
Again
Impulsively
Compulsively
Defiantly
(With Love, so
Much hope, and un-
Adulterated will!)
I acted
Believing but
Maybe deceiving
Myself
That I know better
Or at least
Desire stronger
That sweet
Breath of fresh air
Even if
Off limits,
Inaccessible
Compared with
The constant
Flow of life
You circulate
Within Us
《Sigh》
You’ve wanted
Undivided
Attention
All along,
Haven’t you?
Ha!
Jealous much?
Oh, fine!
Carry then
This other
Desire of desires
You parade before me
Eternal desire
To be close to
She Who Holds My Heart
Damn it anyway!
Carry it with You then!
This eon-old call
Obviously
I can’t handle it
(At least not well
Or without injury
To self or Another ~)
Not this time
Auuugghh!
Fine.
You win!
I tried
Out of deep Love,
Out of True Love
I’ve grasped and I’ve
Stumbled
Again
But You,
Big, fat
Universe
Triumphed
Yet again,
Didn’t you?
With Your
Big, fat
Other plans
For this life!
The valiant
Fighter within
Will fight no more
Instead
I Surrender
Kicking and thrashing
I finally
Finally
Finally
Surrender
To You

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The Universe Is Stronger Than Me

The Universe told Us
Through dreams and intuition
“Not this time, Ladies!”
Sometimes We listened
But Love and will were strong

But the Universe is stronger

I would tell my Love of karma
She would tell me of free will
Sometimes I had to walk away
Sometimes, this time, She did

Ah, yes, the Universe is Strong!
Always guiding toward the plan
Even if sometimes We want to
Or think We can change it
The Universe will laugh
And push Us back into Our places!

But if I cooperate, if She does, too
With this wise Universe
It will have to listen to Us
It will have to heed Our desire
Someday

“They renounced,” it will have to say
“And loved, not just each Other,
But all those who were Theirs to love.”
And the Universe will have to
Measure the pull of Our desire
And bring Us together
Not for reward but necessity
To fulfill an ancient and current
Desire to love together

Yes, the Universe is stronger than me
Fortunately I am smart enough
(Even if slooooow to accept)
To cooperate in between my thrashes and tears
Like a bull fighting for its independence
Yet, ultimately knows who feeds it
I turn back to the pasture that is mine
Smelling the flowers, chewing the grass
Planted for me long ago

The Universe is smarter than me
And knows the Divine timing
The perfect time and place
To bring together two Souls
Who Love