Slow and Steady

turtle

Alas,
As much as I love this engagement,
It is back to the work at hand!
Back to my purpose and every day life
To be more like the turtle
Who notices not whether you notice him
Nor cares not whether you care about him
(In fact, he assumes you don’t!)
Nor worries about the opinions of others
Whether they like his shell
Or the way he swims in the water
(You might think he’s slow,
But he sees himself as quite efficient!)
It’s time for me to focus upon
The life right under my nose
The call within my heart
And the duties that I chose

(For you, Amada Minha, to honor your wishes ~)

Thrashing Tantrum Surrender

Fine!
I get it!
Loud and clear,
You great big
Universe, You!
You’ve told me
At great lengths
I listened and heard
But did quite the
Opposite
Over
And over
And over
Again
Impulsively
Compulsively
Defiantly
(With Love, so
Much hope, and un-
Adulterated will!)
I acted
Believing but
Maybe deceiving
Myself
That I know better
Or at least
Desire stronger
That sweet
Breath of fresh air
Even if
Off limits,
Inaccessible
Compared with
The constant
Flow of life
You circulate
Within Us
《Sigh》
You’ve wanted
Undivided
Attention
All along,
Haven’t you?
Ha!
Jealous much?
Oh, fine!
Carry then
This other
Desire of desires
You parade before me
Eternal desire
To be close to
She Who Holds My Heart
Damn it anyway!
Carry it with You then!
This eon-old call
Obviously
I can’t handle it
(At least not well
Or without injury
To self or Another ~)
Not this time
Auuugghh!
Fine.
You win!
I tried
Out of deep Love,
Out of True Love
I’ve grasped and I’ve
Stumbled
Again
But You,
Big, fat
Universe
Triumphed
Yet again,
Didn’t you?
With Your
Big, fat
Other plans
For this life!
The valiant
Fighter within
Will fight no more
Instead
I Surrender
Kicking and thrashing
I finally
Finally
Finally
Surrender
To You

Letting Go, Part 1

Whisper chills
Down the spine
Falling, calling
Silent pine
Reaching, grasping
Missing fine
Breathing lost
Malaligned

Facing void
Of emptiness
Looking down
Nothing left
Eerie face of
Nothing less
Than weary hopes
And dreary deaths

Stars swirl round
Absent path
Dissolving in
The aftermath
Life be gone
A new one had
Condolences
Forsaking sad

Claw marks mark
The Letting Go
No return,
This is known
Turn to face
Those wildest fears
Finally silence
All those years

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A Vision of Us: Separate But Connected

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Amada Minha, Alma Divina!

I had a vision of Us
In the middle of the night
The two of Us
Sitting on clouds holding hands
But at a distance
Smiling so brightly!
Our Souls
Separate now but
Connected for always!

It may seem silly to others,
But You and I know its true
That We have more to do
Together one day

(Do you know We have friends here,
Such sweet, dear souls,
Who would love to see Us together sooner?
How I wish to fulfill their desire!
Maybe they will see Us next time
Who knows?)

I realized in this vision
What I wrote in a poem
Yesterday:

I trust You.

What I mean to say is

My Soul
Trusts Yours
Implicitly

Just as I have never
Really loved until You,
Neither have I trusted–
Not anyone, not really
Until now

I can finally let go
Of fears of losing You
Because of this vision
Showing me that We are
Side by side
As We have been
For a very long time

I no longer will cry
During romance movies
For some love idea that
Doesn’t exist
Because You are with me
And You most certainly exist!

Even though I have to let go
Of Beijas’ hopes this time–
The closeness and kisses
And fantasies of Our wedding…

(Ah! I’ve not even shared that with
You, have I? Not much at all,
Nor written of it here,
Such a quiet secret it’s been
In my heart!
But, oh yes,
Hundreds of times this same scene:
There We are,
At some alter before friends and family,
A picture of elegant Beauty
Holding hands, facing each Other,
Smiling and perhaps tears of joy,
We dedicate Our Souls to the Other
Such joy! Such relief! Such peace~
In spite of what Our
Poor family members are thinking!
Ahahaha)

…Our Souls dance together
All the time!
Mo Anam Cara ~
We simply are!

More in my vision:
You, all around me now,
Supporting me doing
What’s mine to do–
No more peeking at me from
Across the street!
I need You closer,
Your Presence, Dear Heart,
And You have mine
In all that You do
I have Your back this time,
Brother Warrior!

And I will not leave You
And I will not panic
Causing some disastrous occurrence!
I almost did this time, didn’t I?
Only for wanting You

But You,
Stronger and wiser,
Pushed me out of harm’s way
Missing the sword of sorrow

If We aren’t able to talk
Without forgetting Our Goal
Know that You’re close to me
Right by my side

I hoped for Our friendship
I miss talking with You
The way We used to,
Sharing everything!
I miss it so much!

But, Woman!
What attraction is this
That sets Us on fire
In a zoompy?

It’s the magnetism
That will remind Us
Next time
Not eyes, not scent
But this Love

It’s not that I’m
Suddenly happy
I still miss and want You
If my human self had its say
I’d be there already!
What supernatural force has
Managed to keep me here?

Love.
Love has kept me away
So We can shine
As partners–in secret
And silence and invisibility
This time;
But in all light, love and joy
When it’s Our time

I may have to write
One million poems
To remind myself
Again and again

But, Beloved of mine,
I’m here for You
Look over and see me
On this cloud next to You
Holding Your hand
Separate for now,
But always connected

What more can I say to You
Beautiful
Beloved
Butterfly
Soul?

I
Love
You
So
So
So
Muito ~

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~ When Love First Encountered Us ~

You are away
But my Love keeps flowing
In Your silence
My desire keeps growing

Have I lost my Love
Soul forever?
Or only for the time
It takes

To postpone what
Should flourish?
Should I fear?
Should I cry?

Shall I ignore
The inner promptings?
Within is a sensible
Self that knows

You
With trust of
One thousand lifetimes!
I am Yours

Eternally
Then, Now, Later
But Now would be
A refreshing drink

Of water from the
Universe where Love
First encountered Us
Assigning the burden

We carry now
Too heavy for even
Two Hearts who Love
This much

Reaching Out for You

Reaching Out for You

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Her Reply to “Beijos” ~

Beijos
Beijos sôfregos, beijos ternos.
Olhos nos olhos, eternizam um momento
Em nossas vidas.
Não é paixão, é amor…
Amor entre duas almas velhas companheiras.
Beijos, beijo-te no canto dos olhos
Beijas-me no canto dos labios.
É o alimento para nossas almas
Não sabiamos, então
Era o alimento para nossos corações
Que teríamos para cruzar
Este árido deserto que nos aguardava
O deserto que atravessamos hoje
Que findar-se-a em talvez um século.
Abraço-te e te olho nos olhos.
Lagrimas contenho, na garganta o nó que não desata.
Devo partir, deves voltar…
Embarco tendo nos labios o seu sabor
Nas narinas o seu perfume,
Nos olhos o seu olhar
No peito nossos corações
E o eterno desejo de te reencontrar.

Assim será.
Love you amada minha
04/06/2014

 

(This is Her. Why do I love Her? Can you see now? She is the door in my heart that opens to the Universe. Click here and find the translation. WordPress won’t allow me to link to it yet.)